Dreadfull

It's Tuesday. I don't have band practice this week at least, but I literally have only 2 more days of summer left. That sucks. I haven't even gotten my supplies yet. Come to think of it, they never gave me a supply list either. Monday was orientation. Other than just getting my schedule, it was a big waste of time. I got up early and momma had to go to work late for basically nothing. But I don't know, I'm kind of excited. It's HIGH SCHOOL, officially. Ya know? I'm not looked down on so much this year. I've upgraded from stupid little freshman to stupid little sophmore. So, hey MOVING UP! My birthday is coming up next month too. Then I will officially be legal to work and drive. I don't know if that is a good or bad thing. It's not like I can actually spend my own money if I have any. I owe people money already and my mom probably won't give me a chance to. So, hopefully this year is okay and I don't die or fail or anything. See ya!

The Last Show

Today was the last show. It was sad, but fun to destroy all the sets. The show was great everything was great. I took some peices of the set home with me. I didn't go to the cast party, which I think was a wise choice. But yeah, I'm sad I won't do it anymore, but all good things must come to an end. Speaking of good things, the concert last night was amazing. (thanks Laura) I had about the best spot I could get in a very crowded amusement park, they were amazing, and I didn't get alot of good pictures, but Joel at least had more energy than last time. I am really really tired now, so I thin I'll just post a bunch of pics. Later.

Sleep, Theatre, Concert

My mind can only process those three things right now. I got to catch up on some sleeping today and I did some laundry. Did NOT go to band camp because my thighs were blistered to the extreme. (sucks to be fat) Hopefully Mr.B checks his messages and doesn't kick me out. I went to the theatre tonight because I felt a little better than last night. Last night was aweful for me. Saturday I'm not going at all because ofcourse, I'm going to see my boys in concert. I need to. It's been too long. lol. Sunday I absolutely MUST go because its the last show and I'm actually going to miss it. Plus Shawn would be TICKED. Hehe. He's sort of my boss. So, I know I'm going to the band practice next Tuesday and hopefully I'm not kicked out and hopefully they didn't go really far in the drill. Whew! Technically speaking, I might be screwed. Anyway, I'm gonna go now. Thanks for picking me up from camp, TaSha! And thanks for taking me to see GC Laura! Byebye

Third Day of Band Camp

Today is Wednesday. Only 1 and a half more days of this crap. I woke up so sore this morning, so I was already hurting while we did traverse (side-ways marching) box formations for like 2 hours this morning. Then we played the same 2 measures from our music inside for like 3 hours then we marched some more so my arms and back NEVER got a chance to rest. I know, I'm complaining. And I know, I WANT to do this. I'm just in pain. :( Oh, but I HAVE CABLE NOW! And my concert is only 3 days away. That's good. I have to go to theatre after band camp Thursday and Friday though. I only hope I'll have the ENERGY to see GC. I really really want to. I just don't know if my body will allow me. Well, I'm off to rest. My muscles keep yelling at me. Tata!

First Day Of Band Camp

Today, it was hot. Today I am tired. It's nothing compared to what we are GOING to do, and it was nothing compared to last year. I think my director is going easy on the freshman this year. But, we have to cut a few people this year because the drill we have won't fit everyone in it. I may not make the cut. I hope I do. I didn't work this hard and come this far for nothing. And I am NOT paying 75 dollars just so I won't march. And I'm not wasting my time going through band camp and still going to the theatre even though I'm really tired. This week is our last couple shows. Well, if I do make it through this week without dying, I will be rewarded. I'm going to see Good Charlotte this Saturday at Blue Bayou. Thanks Laura!!! I love them, and it's only fair that if I'm out in the July heat for weeks, I should get to see my boys. And I really hope I can at least get a picture with Paul. Hehe. Well, I'm really tired and I don't know exactly how much sleep I'll get tonight so I better go now. Bye!

And then things go wrong...

Today I woke up feeling exhausted. Ofcourse, I still had a show. Before the show, everything was fine. Then my friend got fired from being a dresser, and the Whitehall and Marks set fell apart. We fixed it, and as soon as the show started, everyone then was faced with the fact that Ray (the star, Max) lost his voice. He was raspy and off, and....it was terrible. So we had to get him a mic. Then we had trouble with the mic. And right after the huge musical number in the second act, our main set, "Max's office" decided to fall apart. After that, we had to cut out Ray's music number because he had no voice, and that gave us HALF the time we usually have to set up for the next scenes. BUT! We got through it. We finished the show at least. And we have three days off, which is nice. I'm tired. I went home at around six today and we went to Walmart and I ate my first veggie burger. OFFICIALLY VEGETARIAN FOR 2 WEEKS!!! YAY ME! Oh, and we got good reviews, so yay us!

And she rested on the seventh day

Today we didn't have a show. (thank God) I'm just really tired. Tomorrow we have a show though. At night, great. I'm gonna get home late. And I'll be tired Thursday. I love working at the theatre, and you make alot of new friends and stuff, I'm just tired. And band camp is just around the corner. It makes me scared actually. I'm afraid I'm going to be so tired, I'll pass out or have a nervous breakdown or something. Oh well....

Anyway, I've been a vegetarian for officially a week and 2 days. I'm proud of myself. I had a huge rack of ribs in front of me July 4th and I didn't even have a bite. yay! I think I can pull it off for a year, by then I don't think I'll even WANT to eat meat anymore. So I feel powerful. I think I can do it. One thing I've noticed since I stopped eating meat though, I'm not so full and sick-feeling anymore. Maybe I was MEANT to do this. Well, I'm gonna split. BUY YOUR TICKETS FOR THE PRODUCERS AT THE BATON ROUGE LITTLE THEATRE. EVERY THURSDAY THROUGH SUNDAY AT SEVEN THIRTY AT NIGHT UNTIL THE 27TH. IF YOU HAVE ALREADY SEEN IT, TELL YOUR FRIENDS. adios.

Opening Night, It's Opening Night!

Tonight was our first show in front of people. Although the people in the audience knew there was probably going to be a mistake or two, we had a few very big ones. Our "Max" set fell apart from rolling over a PENCIL. And we had to stop the whole show because of it. Then we (the tech crew) were told that we suck from a.....nameless member of the cast. We're doing the best we can and it's not appreciated. A lot of people were yelling at me for no reason even though they don't have the authority, so.....yeah, that was fun. And we were two guys short so I had to fill in for both of them. I am so freaking tired and apparently I have to get up early tomorrow (before 12:00 p.m.) for my grandmother. Then I have to babysit, then I have to go BACK to the theatre and do it all again. Hopefully it will go smoother this time and I won't have to pimp slap somebody. Other than that I think I'm doing okay. I've just become a vegetarian, so......we'll see how that works out. Maybe I'll lose weight.....or maybe I'll chew off my own arm. Who knows? Tootles!

Theatre Kid

This week has been full of theatre for me. I started off having no job at all and having no clue what I was doing. Now I move sets and have just a little clue what I'm doing. I offered to dress the star of the show, since we seem to get along, but I have to talk to some people about that. I'm so tired though. We've had rehearsals every day and the actors and the crew are getting annoyed. But next week is when we open the show, so we're all just going to have to suck it up. I've had fun though. I met some cool people. Most of the actors are nice and funny. My "boss" is totally awesome. And I actually like "The Producers". I've come home countless times singing all the songs. I get four free tickets, so SAM AND YVE SHOULD COME. Hintity hint hint. I hear Sam, Yve, and Mom had a really good time last night. Haha. Other than that, I got a new hair cut. And me and mom had some fun today. So check it out. PEACE!!!!

Summer School's Done!!!

Guess what, summer school is finally over and I passed with a B. I'm really glad obviously.....I just really missed sleeping late. So I am going to my grandma's house tomorrow until Sunday then all next week I'll be helping out at the Little Theatre. I'm probably going to get free tickets, so SAM, YOU SHOULD COME WITH MOM TO SEE IT. So I am in a good mood right now. I have something to look forward to. I'll have something to do until band and then I'll be sweatin' to the classics out on the field. So......yay me. I feel better than I did last week. WOOhoo.

So tired

I'm so frickin sick of summer school. I am sleepier and sleepier every day no matter HOW early I go to bed. Then I do the same crap I do every day except every day it gets harder and harder. I do well on the work, but I suck at doing the end of the unit tests. On top of that I have virtually no social life other than the 3 friends I have at summer school and the people that I know tell me not to talk to them anymore. Am I really that much of a disease? I'm just so tired of everything. More than once a day I ask myself, "What's the point?" It doesn't seem like it matters how hard I try to do ANYTHING I always fail in some way or let down someone. Well, I have 25 units of work to do in a period of 4 days, plus the weekend, which you would think is enough time. Oh no. I have four hours in summer school, it takes me 2 hours to do one lesson. It's THAT hard. And I do get it right eventually, but when it comes up in the test at the end I apparently don't know it. Stupid algebra......everything has specific rules and I can't remember all of them. I wrote down EVERYTHING I learned in this past unit and I still got a D on the test. I keep wondering what is so wrong with me or why I even bother to try. I still don't know......

Since Mommy Don't Technically Have a Blog

I was looking at the hilarious pictures from Kelly's birthday at Pf Chang's and I couldn't resist but to post some of them. Sam and Yve (shout out) are in them too.

Tired Sunday

Yesterday Kelly came over for her birthday. Her and mom went to P.f. Changs with Sam and Yve (shout out!) and to a movie. They seemed to have had a good time. I went to my friend Shelly's house for a party she was having. Turns out there was only four of us there. That was okay though. We had much more fun than we would have if there were tons of people there. So we made mini muffins and pranked her mom. I tickled attacked Shelly a few times because she wouldn't get off the phone.....so yeah, Danny Bonamuffin got her revenge!!! Me, Renee, and Shelly all slept in her bed together, so I was a little hot and cramped and Renee kept snoring. This morning mom surprisingly got me at a decent time since she usually comes WAY too early. I was actually awake when she called. Overall I had a good time. So did mama. That's nice. Chris was home alone though......God only knows what he did. Well, Kelly and Mama are making brunch now. I guess I'll just wait until Monday. See ya!

And Summer School Begins...

Today was my first day of summer school. Turns out, we don't even need a teacher. It's ALL computer work. We get on a computer for four hours and do lessons at our own pace. Most of it is easy and you get credit for just completing it. Don't get me wrong, I AM passing it. But I did like half of the first unit just today. This may be easier than I thought it was going to be. Hm...it beats being in that dumb christian school last year with the stupid interactive dvd and the penicostal biget who liked to preach to us for an hour. Well.....that's it!

Memorial Day....it's gonna be memorious alright.

Today was ofcourse Memorial Day. Mom was off, so this morning we got to go register me for SUMMER SCHOOL!!! It was SOOO fun! I got to get a lecture from the lady in the office, got reminded that I wasn't supposed to be going to summer school four times, and I'll be riding the bus there every morning for three weeks. ISN'T it WONDERFUL???? Yeah, I know I'm lazy. I know I'm supposed to take responsibility for my school work and seek help when i need it.....I KNOW! TRUST ME, I KNOW! But when my own teacher REFUSES to help me AT ALL because I'm "too difficult" and there's conveniant tutoring FIRST THING IN THE MORNING at school, and my math teacher LIES to my mother the second month of school saying I don't do ANYTHING in her class.......wow, I guess it is my fault. Golly gee.....I'm a real knuckle head. Anyway, we went to Walmart and got some little things we needed for today. We came home and watched "the invasion". It's this movie about these parasite things that get in your brain and control you....mom was scared. I thought it was pretty good. After mom took a nap we went to Tasha's moms house to go swimming. Then we just came home and did nothing. Awesome. Well, summer school starts this Thursday, so I better enjoy the next two days. Oh wait, I can't because I got to clean the house for mom's friend that's coming over for her birthday. I love Kelly like she was my aunt, but I have to clean the house JUST BECAUSE I'M HOME. Okay, I'm done complaining. Now I have some important staring at the ceiling in my room to do. BYE!!!

I'm lucky

Easy/lucky/free-Conor Oberst

Did it all get real, i guess it's real enough they got refrigerators full of blood another century spent pointing guns at anything that moves sometimes i worry that i've lost the plot my twitching muscles tease my flippant thoughts i never really dreamed of heaven much until we put him in the ground but it's all i'm doing now listening for patterns in the soundo f an endless static sea but once the satellite's deceased it blows like garbage through the streets of the night sky to infinity but don't you weep (don't you weep for them)there is nothing as lucky don't you weep there is nothing as lucky, as easy, and free Don't be a criminal in this police state you better shop and eat and procreate you got vacation days then you might escape to a condo on the coast i set my watch to the atomic clock watch the crowd count down 'til the bomb gets dropped i always figured that there'd be time enoughi never let it get me downbut i can't help it now looking for faces in the cloudsi got some friends i barely seebut we're all planning to meetwe'll lay in bags as dead as leavesall together for eternity but don't you weep there is no one as lucky honey, nothing as lucky, as easy, or free. I'm lucky i don't put myself down as much as some people do. And I'm lucky that I have what I have.

Change of Plans

Yesterday I had a sore throat. It hurt really bad and I could barely swallow. This morning I woke up with no longer a sore throat, but a stuffy nose, a cough and dizziness. I feel aweful. I slept all day, which I've never done. Mom had to stay home from work. She might catch whatever I have. So I barely got out of bed today. Good thing my friend's party was postponed. I would've felt even worse if I missed it. I had to miss Jordan's birthday party though. I feel bad about that. So when I finally woke up today it was around 3:30. Mom made some chicken, sausage, potato thing and I made some baked potatoes....so yeah, I'm full of potato....and peanut butter. I like peanut butter. Anyway......GREAT way to start the summer huh? This sucks.....bye bye.

Last Day of School :(

I passed all but one class, I didn't get in trouble all year, I had a good day......so why am I so sad? Matthew's gone, Ryker's gone, no more Coach Wax, no more sitting at lunch with my best friend every day, no more getting by easy. I'm also going to summer school.....I think. Tomorrow I'm planning on sulking around the house, doing some stuff for mom, then going to my friend Shelly's party. I REALLY need to get out of here. If I'm left with time to think I end up crying. I'm just emotional. EVERY YEAR I lose at least one friend. For ANY reason. It's not fair.

The Day Before

It's Tuesday. The day before the last day of school. I'm sinburned from last weekend when we went to Mona's cookout. It feels better though. I'm just trying to do a lot of "last things". Like my last drink I'll buy from the Freshman High coke machines, and the last time I'll eat in their cafeteria, the last time I see my Matthew....waaah!!! I just can't believe I'll never see him again. He's been a big part of this year, I was so glad I met him....now he's just leaving. Ugh....so my friend Jordan's birthday party is Thursday and so is my other friend's party. I really want to go to both, but I don't know what's going on. And I might be GOING BACK TO SUMMER SCHOOL. I DON'T want to. But I don't know what else I can do. It's so stupid how I went to Credit Recovery and still have to pay nearly 200 dollars for summer school. Everyone tells me the same thing-"You should've got it right the first time" But ya know what? I DON'T FREAKING UNDERSTAND MATH, okay? Do you all hear me? I try. I REALLY REALLY TRY and it never comes to me. That's why I give up and stop trying. No matter how hard I DO try, it never does me any good. That's it.

May Day

It's Saturday night. Not much to do. I was supposed to go to my friend's house, but YET AGAIN she didn't answer her phone. But yesterday was fun. I went through 4 classes which were 30 minutes each, then we went over to the High School gym to practice with the band for Graduation. That lasted 2 HOURS!!! Then we went to May Day. I had alot of fun. We got our faces painted and I was in a race with my friends where we had to get in a car and click our seatbelts then get out and go to the next seat. We couldn't stop laughing. So I got a few pictures with my friends and teachers. And my vice principal. UGH, he's so cute! (I know, that's wrong) I only got 3 days of school left. And they're all finals days. I'm gonna miss the friends that are leaving, but that's the way it is. So here's the pictures....

I'm gonna miss Matthew the most. And my Rykis.

Coach Wax looks gorgeuss in that Hiwaiin shirt. (don't deny it) We shot my friend Shawna in the head so we mourned her death. Me and Jordan had some fun too.

Even though my bff Shelly Bean couldn't participate at May Day, the caution tape WOULDN'T seperate us!

Singing in the Rain

Yesterday it rained really hard and we had really strong winds. It started as just a little rainfall then it felt like a fricken hurricane. There was dubri all over the place and the wind knocked over some small trees. So then it rained basically all night and was still raining in the morning-no- make that STORMING. So I go outside at 6:40 to wait for the bus and I'm stading there in the rain......and thunder......and lightening.....and my neighbor comes out and tells me the schools are closed. I just smile and say, "Not yet, still got another week." Then my friend Justin and his mom pull up and tell me the schools are closed. Turns out they were right and I stood in the rain for a half an hour for nothing. But I had the whole day off because the power was out at school. Then around noon, it stopped raining and the sun came out. Some people don't have power right now, I consider myself lucky. But this day off is a huge inconveniance for me with my school work. I had a studyguide due today and I was supposed to say my monologue in drama class. I was also supposed to play a scale in band. So if the power is out tomorrow, I'll be so ticked. I haven't gotten in ANY trouble ALL year and I really want to go to May Day. I haven't had a trouble-free year like this since 3rd grade. It means something to me. I'm not a bad kid, I just feel smarter because I don't do stupid things. I learned that if you do what the teachers want you to do, they leave you alone and don't watch you like a hawk all year. So...I'm just going to watch the news tomorrow morning to see if the power is up yet. And again, if it isn't, I'll be busting some heads up in herr! holla homies

Mondie Mondie

Ah, Monday. The second to last Monday of the school year. Today was "eighties hair day" between me and my friends, so I teased my hair to high heaven and my friend Matthew looked like the lead singer from A Flock Of Seagulls. We had a good time turning heads today. Anyway, yesterday I fractured my toe for the second time in my life and it hurts SO bad. I hit it on the wall. So all day it's been hurting and after school my bus driver decides she isn't going to show up so I had to fricken walk home with a fractured toe. Ow. So, all this week I'm going to be buried up to my chin in study guides for finals. I don't mind doing them, it's just inconveniant when you're supposed to turn them in. Stupid teachers....they want us out as soon as possible, but yet we have to do all this small grade crap. Anyway, for my closing statement I want to give a shout out to UNCLE STEVEN for all the cool stuff he's given me. THANK YOU STEVEN!!!!!!!! I enjoy them very much.

AND WELCOME BACK SAM AND YVE, I HOPE YOU ENJOYED YOUR TRIP!

Mother's Day

I want to take the time to tell my mother that I love her. Today is the one day of the year when most people call their mom's they haven't talked to in months and say I love you. Since I deffinately do not have that problem, and I'm ALWAYS with her, I could just give her a nice poem I wrote and she was happy with it. Ever since I could write, she would be happy with some crappy home-made card. I realize now that home-made gifts can only last so long. I can't give her a drawing I made of her and me when I'm 24. But....I'm 14 now and I gave her just a poem, and she loved it. I love how she just enjoys something I give her because I gave it to her. We don't have much money right now and she didn't care that I couldn't get her a gift. Even if we have the time and money, she just tells me that if I make her something, she'll be happy. So now we have a full file cabinet of all the crap I've made her over the years. She's currently sun bathing outside, which she never does. I'm glad she's relaxing. Mom's been so stressed lately, I'm thankfull for this one day dedicated to Mother's because it gives my mom a break, which she desperately diserves. I love her with all my heart, and even though she can't take me out every day, I'm glad she provides for me everything else I need. I LOVE YOU MAMA!!!!

The last REAL School Friday

Today was like, beyond depressing. It was awards day and the same like, 4 people kept getting the awards and we had our last REAL Friday of the school year. I'm especially going to miss my drama teacher.....she was the only teacher who made everything fun and talked to us like equals. We were all telling everyone else how much we loved them and how we were going to miss them. Five of my friends are coming back to the same school next year. That hurts. God only knows how many friends I'm going to lose touch with next year. I did it this year, a lot of my friends I don't talk to any more. But.....it's still another boring weekend. I planned on going vegetarian by next Sunday.....but I might have to wait on that. It's an experiment really. Anyway, next week is just preperation for the teachers to kick us out of school so I don't know if I should be excited or what.

Two Weeks From the End Wednesday

Today is officially two weeks from the last day of school. Yesterday was my last day of credit recovery. (yay!) I passed and now all I have to do is find money for credit recovery in the summer. I am currently accepting odd jobs to make money. We're not doing much work in any of my classes. We have a few small tests this week and next, then it's finals. So....I get to go to May Day. Which means next Friday I get to slack off all day. Then it's tears, hugs, and fond memories until two Wednesdays from now. God, I'm so frickin scared to go to high school. I'll have to take driver's ed and I'm scared I'm going to crash....I might get into trouble more easily over there.....I might get beat up. Anything can happen. Ugh....guess I'll have to suck it up.

A whole notha Boring Friday

Friday.....and it's lonely and boring. Mom's watching a movie and Chris is asleep already. I have nowhere to go and nothing to do. School's NEARLY out.....God, it's going so slow. Next Tuesday is the LAST credit recovery class so that's cool. Today was okay too. In science we tried out our hot-air balloons we made. Our's flew, so it got a passing grade. In geography we did this thing where each geography class was another continent. So we visited all seven. Europe was pathetic. Stonehenge was made out of toilet paper roles.....haha. Our Africa was flippin awesome though. So today was the festival I missed. I shouldn't take it personal though because most of my friends couldn't go either. Next week I should give Mr.B the evil stare during class. Anyway I'm bored so here's a bunch of pictures of me and my AWESOME mommy.

Just Laid Back Today

Today was sort of laid back and not much happened. We're nearing the end of the year in school and the teachers are kinda getting lazy. They're starting to use that line on us now. Ya know, "School's not over yet!" So, we're learning about boats in Health. Yeah, I said BOATS. The plus side is that if I pass the test at the end of next week, I get my official boating license in the mail. Even if I don't want one! Ha. Anywho, we got four weeks to go now......and I'm starting to do that thing when I cry every time I see something I see everyday. Like I'll go, "There's that gym door I slammed my finger in! Waah!" It's weird, but I do it every year. We had some little speech from the high school kids about clubs we can join next year and I started crying as soon as I realised I wouldn't see my drama teacher next year. She found it hilarious. I just get real emotional about school.....next year it's a whole nother ball game. (redneck saying) I mean, the security blanket from junior high's already gone. Now, the security blanket of having only kids my age is gone. I'm scared..... Oh well. I smell pork, I gotta go. OH, I BOUGHT A MUFFIN TODAY. YAY!

Sweeney's Waiting, "I want you bleeders...."

I got the soundtrack for Sweeney Todd from Sam and Yve.....who rock my socks. Sweeney Todd is so addicting, I've been singing those songs for days and now I get to hear them! It was SOOO nice of them. Thank you guys. And thanks for letting me borrow Superbad. I love ya!

Oh well

Friday night and nothing to do. I got checked out at lunch today and we went to the eye doctor. He checked my eyes for 2 seconds and I left. I asked Mr.B (my director) about festival today. He said I can't go since I can't go to the practices and I can't go to practices because of credit recovery. Whatever, saves me money. Anyway, after the doctor, mom bought me Cane's and we rented some movies. I just watched Superbad all the way through. It was flippin awesome. Ooh, and so was the play last night. We met Sam and Yve there (shout out!) and it was awesome. Yve and Sam were funny and now mom's gone to see a Ewan Mcgregor movie with them. I'm stuck at home with Chris.....again. It's okay....I could be doing something ten times worse. I'm just bored. Peace :)

Goin to a Play

I just got home from credit recovery and we're going to the little theatre to see Best Little Whore House In Texas. That should be cool. Tomorrow I'm going back to the eye doctor to check on my contacts so that means I get a half day of school. Next week I have state band festival in Natchitoches, so I get practically a half a day then too. Then there's two more weeks and schools over! I get a week, then summer school, then around 3 weeks, then BAND BAND BAND. After July 21st, I have no life except band. That sucks in the hottest month of the year, but it pays off. I was SO miserable during marching season, but I just can't help but to be excited to do it all again. I can't wait until the football games, where we get down in the stands and OWN the field. Ofcourse, the seniors will be gone, that'll suck, but WE get to pick on the freshies next year! Haha! Anywho, I gosta go. Peace

S-A-TUR-DAY NIGHT!

I just love Saturdays. You can sleep in until as long as you want, you don't have to go to work or school, and the next day you can do it all over again. Yesterday I checked out of class to go to an eye appointment because I lost a lense from my glasses. Now I have contacts! No more fore-eyes jokes! They're surprisingly easy to put in and take out too. Last night I had my band concert. Mom and Chris both came and we ROCKED. Then I rode home with my friend Matthew and we watched Sweeney Todd at his house. I came and home and basically went straight to sleep. This morning I woke up late, watched Grease, had some cereal. Mom and I went to Carter's then locked ourselves out of the house. Luckily our landlord was stopping by next door, so he let us in. Afterward, we went to TaSha's (mom's friend) house and mom got her makeup sampled for Ta's wedding in September. We came home around six, watched Sweeney Todd again, and I just finished putting make-up on Chris. Tell me how he looks!

Wonderful Wednesday

Wednesday's are awesome. I don't have credit recovery, I have a house to myself after school, and all the good stuff's on TV. Today was alright anyway. I had a good day. I found out I've pulled all my grades up. I probably aced the test on Romeo and Juliet I took today. My friend bought me a brownie at lunch just because. But, ofcourse....there's "him". My "friend" who's being all cold to me. We talked a little today and he said he cares alot about what people think of him. Then he said he didn't want to seem like a man whore, and then he brought God into it. I rolled my eyes and yelled at him. At my next class I started crying. He's so.....ugh, difficult. ONE PERSON, ONE FREAKING PERSON says something and he acts completely different around me. That's really stupid because a lot of people pick on him and he says he doesn't care, but now he does? What a big baby. I wish we could just go out and get it over with, but NO! He's a dependancy for me now. This sucks. I'm a strong person and I don't need some stupid boy to ruin everything for me. We don't even have a lot in common. I mean, he's not even that attractive. What do I see in him? What's my problem? Maybe it's the fact that I've never had a REAL boyfriend. That I actually see, and talk to and like. I'm just....screwed up. I let him say a lot of things to me, but....I won't let him take over my mind.