Just Laid Back Today

Today was sort of laid back and not much happened. We're nearing the end of the year in school and the teachers are kinda getting lazy. They're starting to use that line on us now. Ya know, "School's not over yet!" So, we're learning about boats in Health. Yeah, I said BOATS. The plus side is that if I pass the test at the end of next week, I get my official boating license in the mail. Even if I don't want one! Ha. Anywho, we got four weeks to go now......and I'm starting to do that thing when I cry every time I see something I see everyday. Like I'll go, "There's that gym door I slammed my finger in! Waah!" It's weird, but I do it every year. We had some little speech from the high school kids about clubs we can join next year and I started crying as soon as I realised I wouldn't see my drama teacher next year. She found it hilarious. I just get real emotional about school.....next year it's a whole nother ball game. (redneck saying) I mean, the security blanket from junior high's already gone. Now, the security blanket of having only kids my age is gone. I'm scared..... Oh well. I smell pork, I gotta go. OH, I BOUGHT A MUFFIN TODAY. YAY!

Sweeney's Waiting, "I want you bleeders...."

I got the soundtrack for Sweeney Todd from Sam and Yve.....who rock my socks. Sweeney Todd is so addicting, I've been singing those songs for days and now I get to hear them! It was SOOO nice of them. Thank you guys. And thanks for letting me borrow Superbad. I love ya!

Oh well

Friday night and nothing to do. I got checked out at lunch today and we went to the eye doctor. He checked my eyes for 2 seconds and I left. I asked Mr.B (my director) about festival today. He said I can't go since I can't go to the practices and I can't go to practices because of credit recovery. Whatever, saves me money. Anyway, after the doctor, mom bought me Cane's and we rented some movies. I just watched Superbad all the way through. It was flippin awesome. Ooh, and so was the play last night. We met Sam and Yve there (shout out!) and it was awesome. Yve and Sam were funny and now mom's gone to see a Ewan Mcgregor movie with them. I'm stuck at home with Chris.....again. It's okay....I could be doing something ten times worse. I'm just bored. Peace :)

Goin to a Play

I just got home from credit recovery and we're going to the little theatre to see Best Little Whore House In Texas. That should be cool. Tomorrow I'm going back to the eye doctor to check on my contacts so that means I get a half day of school. Next week I have state band festival in Natchitoches, so I get practically a half a day then too. Then there's two more weeks and schools over! I get a week, then summer school, then around 3 weeks, then BAND BAND BAND. After July 21st, I have no life except band. That sucks in the hottest month of the year, but it pays off. I was SO miserable during marching season, but I just can't help but to be excited to do it all again. I can't wait until the football games, where we get down in the stands and OWN the field. Ofcourse, the seniors will be gone, that'll suck, but WE get to pick on the freshies next year! Haha! Anywho, I gosta go. Peace

S-A-TUR-DAY NIGHT!

I just love Saturdays. You can sleep in until as long as you want, you don't have to go to work or school, and the next day you can do it all over again. Yesterday I checked out of class to go to an eye appointment because I lost a lense from my glasses. Now I have contacts! No more fore-eyes jokes! They're surprisingly easy to put in and take out too. Last night I had my band concert. Mom and Chris both came and we ROCKED. Then I rode home with my friend Matthew and we watched Sweeney Todd at his house. I came and home and basically went straight to sleep. This morning I woke up late, watched Grease, had some cereal. Mom and I went to Carter's then locked ourselves out of the house. Luckily our landlord was stopping by next door, so he let us in. Afterward, we went to TaSha's (mom's friend) house and mom got her makeup sampled for Ta's wedding in September. We came home around six, watched Sweeney Todd again, and I just finished putting make-up on Chris. Tell me how he looks!

Wonderful Wednesday

Wednesday's are awesome. I don't have credit recovery, I have a house to myself after school, and all the good stuff's on TV. Today was alright anyway. I had a good day. I found out I've pulled all my grades up. I probably aced the test on Romeo and Juliet I took today. My friend bought me a brownie at lunch just because. But, ofcourse....there's "him". My "friend" who's being all cold to me. We talked a little today and he said he cares alot about what people think of him. Then he said he didn't want to seem like a man whore, and then he brought God into it. I rolled my eyes and yelled at him. At my next class I started crying. He's so.....ugh, difficult. ONE PERSON, ONE FREAKING PERSON says something and he acts completely different around me. That's really stupid because a lot of people pick on him and he says he doesn't care, but now he does? What a big baby. I wish we could just go out and get it over with, but NO! He's a dependancy for me now. This sucks. I'm a strong person and I don't need some stupid boy to ruin everything for me. We don't even have a lot in common. I mean, he's not even that attractive. What do I see in him? What's my problem? Maybe it's the fact that I've never had a REAL boyfriend. That I actually see, and talk to and like. I'm just....screwed up. I let him say a lot of things to me, but....I won't let him take over my mind.

One Wedding, A Seafood Restaurant, and Relationship Problems

My weekend was a good one. Friday we got our cable cut back on, Saturday we went to Gulfport, MS to get mom's friend Kelly then she took us to Mobile, Alabama for mom's friend Amy's wedding. We stayed in a nice hotel. And I mean NICE. It was probably the nicest hotel I've ever stayed in. We got ready and literally walked across the street to where the wedding was. It was in a museum. Amy looked beautiful and she looked really happy. I saw my cousin and grandparents since they all know each other from church. Mom got to see some people she used to go to church with. The reception was awesome. The food was amazing. The band was.....hot. Me and my cousin Ashlynn danced like complete morons with Amy's mom. Then when some of the kids there got fussy, we went back to the hotel to babysit. I wasn't saposed to fall asleep, but I did. Then me mom and Kelly went back to our room and talked about farts until 2 in the morning. Sunday we left. We went to this seafood restaurant and I ate lobster dip, a cheeseburger, fries, and macaroni and cheese. I was hungry, then when I got home I exploded, and I don't mean vomit.......anyway, we watched "The Mist". It was stupid. Everyone was too calm for me and no one barely panicked. Cool death scenes though. Well.....I'm hormonal right now, so I guess I'm kinda sensative. Today.....my "friend" who.....I literally dated for one day in my life, but practically have been dating for October, really hurt me today. He doesn't mean to, we both just.....offend each other. Anyway, I like hug him or whatever in between classes and today someone asked if we were dating. I said no, then made the mistake of telling him. He got all weird and wouldn't even touch me because "I'm not his girlfriend". I've told him how I felt before. He tells me he loves me all the time. Then today he's got a problem because of what one person asks. I got really upset. I feel like I can't ever be good enough for him. I've tried, but I don't want to say "Just forget it". I've done that all the times I've lost friends. God.....I hate him because how worked up he gets me. I know....I'm 14, "what do I know about love?". He screws me up sometimes. Too bad I can't do a thing about it.

Saying nothing

Today was Thursday. It was renaissance day so in English class, we ate food and watched a little film I did in the drama club of Romeo and Juliet. It was good. It was laid back and relaxing today since we really didn't seem to do much in any class. I had a good day. Then I went to credit recovery, said the wrong thing not exactly AT the wrong person, but they took it the wrong way. I was cussed out by that wrong person's boyfriend and now mom and Chris are all worked up about it since I seem to put myself in the most destructive situations. I need to learn to say nothing. To sit and think, "Nah, I shouldn't say this. Someone bigger than me might want to bash my face in if I say this. Someone might spread rumors about me if I say this. Someone might corner me before class if I say this." I usually do not say anything to anyone I don't know/like. The only times I do though.....it turns out bad. It seems like every time, like I'm destined to be in the wrong place at the wrong time every time. I should say nothing at all. No more talking, no more assuming, just more thinking. Think. That's it. Think. Because there are unfortunately people in this world who constantly want to fight everyone. I'll say nothing more. Just that life's no story book.

Case of the Mondays

Monday night is here and I just can't wait until the weekend's here again. That's how I make it through the week, saying to myself "Only four more days until Friday. Only 3 more days untile Friday." But when Friday comes I don't do like all the teachers and bus drivers telling everybody, "Thank God it's the Weekend!!" Anywho....this week I have a few projects due and ofcourse good ole Credit Recovery. Tomorrow I'm ditching and going to drama instead. Last weekend was kinda boring but this weekend mom's taking me to her friend's wedding. It's a long drive, but it's better than staying home. We're just going for a day to Mobile and I get to dress up and what not. So....that should be cool. School's almost over now. Only got one more month. There's something to look forward to. And I'm pulling my grades up. Yay me! Hasta manana.

Gabba Gabba Hey!

It is Friday and there's nowhere to go and nothing to do so I'm just at home, chilling out for once. I've been listening to my new Ramones cd a lot (that I only bought for five pounds) and it's really good. "End of a Century", it's got the songs from Rock n Roll High School which I love and it really makes you happy. Anywho.....today was alright. It was short because we had career day. That meant shorter classes. My top three careers that were chosen for me were chef, pharmacist, and licenced nurse. I really want to be a chef, and that didn't change after I heard the speech from the pharmacist and the nurse. You have to pretty much take classes or some kind of training for pretty much anything you decide to do, but.....ALL THAT MEDICAL SCHOOL????!!! Ugh....I'll pass. I picked nurse as my last resort career since my cousin and her mother, and her mother were all nurses. I thought it couldn't be that hard. I REALLY want to go to the coulinary arts program in Louisiana Tech though. That's my dream, but.....I come from a place where what you dream isn't necessarily what you do. I will probably end up with a job IN the food industry.....but instead of saying "Order up!", I'll probably be saying, "You want fries with that? Thank you, drive around." I just need to get a good education and not give up or settle for less than what I want, because I learned that if you work hard only to go in a different and less fufilling direction, you end up regretting it for a long time. Anyway.......it's absolutely pouring outside so I should probably get off before the power goes out. I just got in from playing in the rain......I love doing that. Especially in the summer.....ahem, no hippie jokes please. Well, adios

Thursday Night And It's Feeling Right

It's Thursday night and I had credit recovery today. It was okay, I just was bored. Today wasn't a great day for me since we had a field trip and most of my friends weren't there. Then after school in the little time we have to wait until we go to our credit recovery class my friend managed to make a big tough black girl mad at her and her friends took it out on me. What happened was I took off my shoes and a few nerdy boys that wait with us took them and threw them at said black girl. While I was yelling just for my shoes to be returned not AT anyone, my very very "smart" friend decided to call the girl names and insult her physical appearance. I quickly rushed her away before someone got hurt but the said black girl's friends cornered me on the way to class so I was upset. Partially because I always get the blame for stupid girly drama and partially because my friend, who still will remain nameless, keeps starting things she cannot finish and continues to never learn her lesson. I love her to death, but she needs to think about things before she does them and learn that she is a wimp when it really comes down to it.

So I put a picture of me smiling on this post, because even the worst/dumbest situations, you just need to smile and say, "Who Cares?"

Peace

HOME

^^me n mommie at de olde pube^^

We're home and what do you know, it's hot. Well, at least I could enjoy the cold England weather while it lasted. Luckily it's been a slow week and we haven't done too much work in class. I do have a ton of band stuff coming up though and it will cost Momma a fortune. Not to mention I have to go to summer school again this summer and I am going to have to make money somehow for that. Stupid algebra..... Anyway, only eight weeks left till we get out for summer, even though I won't have much of a summer. Immediately after summer school, band starts and Mr.B (our director) doesn't like us to have much of a life outside band. I'm going to start lifting weights to build up my upper arm strength for those long days of erect horn angles. So, I have some science homework to finish and then I'm going to bed. I've been oddly tired and hungry since we got back from our trip and I don't know why.....hmm.....dang pork pies. Tata's!