The Day Before

It's Tuesday. The day before the last day of school. I'm sinburned from last weekend when we went to Mona's cookout. It feels better though. I'm just trying to do a lot of "last things". Like my last drink I'll buy from the Freshman High coke machines, and the last time I'll eat in their cafeteria, the last time I see my Matthew....waaah!!! I just can't believe I'll never see him again. He's been a big part of this year, I was so glad I met him....now he's just leaving. Ugh....so my friend Jordan's birthday party is Thursday and so is my other friend's party. I really want to go to both, but I don't know what's going on. And I might be GOING BACK TO SUMMER SCHOOL. I DON'T want to. But I don't know what else I can do. It's so stupid how I went to Credit Recovery and still have to pay nearly 200 dollars for summer school. Everyone tells me the same thing-"You should've got it right the first time" But ya know what? I DON'T FREAKING UNDERSTAND MATH, okay? Do you all hear me? I try. I REALLY REALLY TRY and it never comes to me. That's why I give up and stop trying. No matter how hard I DO try, it never does me any good. That's it.