Wonderful Wednesday

Wednesday's are awesome. I don't have credit recovery, I have a house to myself after school, and all the good stuff's on TV. Today was alright anyway. I had a good day. I found out I've pulled all my grades up. I probably aced the test on Romeo and Juliet I took today. My friend bought me a brownie at lunch just because. But, ofcourse....there's "him". My "friend" who's being all cold to me. We talked a little today and he said he cares alot about what people think of him. Then he said he didn't want to seem like a man whore, and then he brought God into it. I rolled my eyes and yelled at him. At my next class I started crying. He's so.....ugh, difficult. ONE PERSON, ONE FREAKING PERSON says something and he acts completely different around me. That's really stupid because a lot of people pick on him and he says he doesn't care, but now he does? What a big baby. I wish we could just go out and get it over with, but NO! He's a dependancy for me now. This sucks. I'm a strong person and I don't need some stupid boy to ruin everything for me. We don't even have a lot in common. I mean, he's not even that attractive. What do I see in him? What's my problem? Maybe it's the fact that I've never had a REAL boyfriend. That I actually see, and talk to and like. I'm just....screwed up. I let him say a lot of things to me, but....I won't let him take over my mind.